I tend to worry about things I shouldn’t be worried about. Like what will happen a year from now? Will I be successful by then? I really hope so. Will I get to have my dream job? What if I disappoint my family? I’m afraid of failing. I’m afraid of not being enough. Not being good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough. I act like I don’t care what people think and say about me, but I do.
And then I realized that I shouldn’t be worried of things I really cannot control. Some things just don’t go according to plan. If I fail at something, maybe that’s just wasn’t meant for me. Maybe I am destined for something else, for something better. There’s this quote that I’ve read before, “If you didn’t give up on getting there, then you’re not on the wrong road because everything in this world is connected.”
As for not being enough, I cannot do anything about what other people would think. I can’t please everybody, right? So I’m just going to be who I am, if they can’t accept that then I’m better off without those who can’t like me as I am. I’m just going to live my life the way I want to. You should, too.
Go ahead. Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much he/she means to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing.
PS. Photos were from my Tumblr account.
Sometimes, it’s like people are a million times more beautiful to you in your mind. It’s like you see them through a special lens — but maybe if it’s how you see them, that’s how they really are.
– Jenny Han, The Summer I Turned Pretty
If you ask me, we go to the movies because we want to see fairy tales. A sleeping queen woken by her true love’s kiss. A princess who puts aside her jewels to make her way in the world. Lovers torn apart being brought back together. But life isn’t a fairy tale. And happy endings are few and far between. In life, the young queen becomes a tyrant and takes her subjects to war. So that’s why we need movies. To remind us that, despite it all, love can still spring in the most unlikely of places. And that sometimes, even fairy tales can come true.
– Gossip Girl
Frodo: I can’t do this, Sam.
Sam: I know. It’s all wrong. By rights we shouldn’t even be here. But we are. It’s like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger, they were. And sometimes you didn’t want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it’s only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back, only they didn’t. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.
Frodo: What are we holding onto, Sam?
Sam: That there’s some good in this world, Mr. Frodo… and it’s worth fighting for.
It’s funny how someone can be such an integral part of your life, like you laugh at the same jokes and eat your ice cream cones the same way, and share your toys and dreams and everything but your heartbeats, and then one day — nothing. You share nothing. It’s like none of it ever happened.
– Fixing Delilah
You need to let go of whatever it is that makes you think you’re not good enough.
– Marvin “Mouth” McFadden
One Tree Hill Season 5 Episode 11, You’re Gonna Need Someone On Your Side