“Twenty four oceans
Twenty four skies
Twenty four failures
Twenty four tries
Life is not what I thought it was
Twenty four hours ago”
So I just turned 24 last month, and now I am so wise and matured. Just kidding, of course. Being twenty-four doesn’t feel any different from being twenty-three. I spent my birthday eating. Haha! I went to The Nook with my sister. It’s a Harry Potter-inspired cafe in Maginhawa, Quezon City. We tried the Butterbeer. I am definitely coming back to this place because I did not get the chance to try the robes. Haha! It was a Wednesday afternoon, but there are still many people coming in and out the cafe.
Here are some pictures I have taken:
Then, we (the family) had dinner at a seafood restaurant. It’s been an awesome day and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Too bad I had to go to work the following day. Haha!
Anyway, I am nearing half of my twenties and I still haven’t figured out what to do with my life. I have goals, of course. But I feel like what I am doing with my life right now is not the right path to achieve my dreams. Do you feel me, reader? When I was younger, I have this mindset of what to do someday, but now is part of that someday and I’m so off track. I’m scared that when I get back on track, it might be too late. I don’t want to spend my life regretting my choices. That would suck.
But I believe it will all work out in the end, because if I won’t, who else will? So here’s to kids who are in their twenties and still figuring out life. We got this. We can do this!
I’ve been away from this blog for what feels like a really long time. It’s so good to be back. I’ve missed writing. Anyway, I’ve been kinda busy with work (Yes, I am employed now. Hooray!) and my old laptop broke down. It’s sad because I had that laptop for more than four years. That’s long for a laptop, right?
As I’ve said, I’ve been kinda busy with work. Although I have no work during weekends, I don’t have enough time for leisure during weekdays. I live in Quezon City and work in Makati. I don’t mind the travel since I love travelling. But sometimes the commute makes me tired. At first, I ride the bus but nowadays the traffic is so heavy it makes me late for work for a few times already. So I decided to take the MRT. But man, the queue! I feel like I spend more time waiting for than train than actually being in the train. A commuter life is such a hard life.
The most awesome thing happened last March. I passed the Electronics Engineering board exam! OH YEAAAAAAAH! I got a Conditional status last December so I have to take one subject in March. Yey! This makes every one in the family and my circle of friends so happy. Hihi.
Sa tingin mo, mahaba o maikli ang isang buwan?
Minsan parang ang tagal matapos ng isang buwan. Tulad na lamang kung may hinihintay ka, ‘yung tipong parang wala kang ibang pwedeng gawin kundi maghintay. Minsan naman parang ang bilis. Lumipas na lang ang mga araw nang hindi mo namamalayan.
Sa buhay ko ngayon, parang nabibilisan ako sa paglipas ng araw. Hindi ko nga namalayan na meron na lang pala akong tatlumpung araw para mabasa, ma-recall at makabisado ang mga napag-aralan ko na dati. Saktong tatlumpung araw na lang kasi magtetake na ako ng board exam. Medyo nahihirapan nga ako. Chill lang kasi akong estudyante dati. Gusto kong pumasa, syempre, pero hindi ako ‘yung tipong subsob talaga sa pag-aaral. ‘Pag napasa ko na ‘yung subject, karamihan dun nakalimutan ko na. Ang dami ko tuloy kailangan aralin ulit.
‘Yung isang buwan na natitira para maaral ko lahat ng kailangang aralin pakiramdaman ko fourth quarter ng isang basketball game, tapos ako ‘yung tambak na team. Tambak na ko ng mga topics na babasahin at formulas na kailangang makabisado. ‘Yung ang dami-dami kong kailangan habulin kung gusto kong manalo ‘pag tumunog na ‘yung buzzer. Ito ‘yung sitwasyon na kailangan manalo sa fourth quarter. No to overtime. Kailangan isang take lang, pasado na. Nakakahiya kasi sa pamilya ko. Kahit hindi nila sabihin para ‘di ako mapressure, alam ko namang gusto na nila akong magtrabaho.
The great loves are the crazy ones.
I’ve always wanted to experience a love that won’t make me feel bored. I don’t want a routine. Of course, I want someone who makes me happy. But there’s gotta be more than that. Perfection is overrated. I don’t want a perfect guy. I just want someone who can tolerate the weirdness in me, someone who’s cool and funny. A guy who’s like a best friend and loves me so much. I want a crazy love, a frustrating love — with screaming and fighting, a roller coaster kind of rush. I want a love that will make people go, “You’re still together?! Wow!”, a love where we’ve been together for so long but there are still butterflies.
What we have is a great love. It’s complicated, intense, all-consuming. No matter what we do and how much we fight, it’ll always pull us in. What’s mere happiness in the face of all that, right?
– Blair Waldorf
HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY TO MY BLOG! :)
I remember when I started this. I just wanted to have a blog where I can post anything I want. I already have a Tumblr account, but that’s mostly for my fangirling. Wherein here, my posts were really personal. Sometimes, I can’t think of new entries so I would just post a quote or pictures. I even did Day Challenges! I know I’m not a good writer. I actually hate doing essays in class. But I do my best, and that’s okay. I made this blog for myself, not for my English teacher. Right? Hahaha!
To everyone who follows and visit my blog, who likes and leaves comments on my posts, THANK YOU VERY MUCH! Cheers, guys! :))
I tend to worry about things I shouldn’t be worried about. Like what will happen a year from now? Will I be successful by then? I really hope so. Will I get to have my dream job? What if I disappoint my family? I’m afraid of failing. I’m afraid of not being enough. Not being good enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough. I act like I don’t care what people think and say about me, but I do.
And then I realized that I shouldn’t be worried of things I really cannot control. Some things just don’t go according to plan. If I fail at something, maybe that’s just wasn’t meant for me. Maybe I am destined for something else, for something better. There’s this quote that I’ve read before, “If you didn’t give up on getting there, then you’re not on the wrong road because everything in this world is connected.”
As for not being enough, I cannot do anything about what other people would think. I can’t please everybody, right? So I’m just going to be who I am, if they can’t accept that then I’m better off without those who can’t like me as I am. I’m just going to live my life the way I want to. You should, too.
Go ahead. Take chances. Tell the truth. Date someone totally wrong for you. Say no. Spend all your cash. Get to know someone random. Be random. Say I love you. Sing out loud. Laugh at stupid jokes. Cry. Apologize. Tell someone how much he/she means to you. Tell a jerk what you think. Laugh until your stomach hurts. Live life. Regret nothing.
PS. Photos were from my Tumblr account.